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 Post subject: Gentle Giant
PostPosted: Wed Jul 26, 2017 6:23 am 
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I'm not sure how to write this. So please forgive me if I don't make sense, because nothing makes any sense right now. Sunday night Jake went into status, they stabilized him and it looked hopeful, but late Monday he started having seizure tremors. They did everything they could for three hours with mega doses of meds, but nothing helped. His brain function went to almost nothing so we had to let him go.
We are absolutely shattered. But the thing is, he was thinking of us right up until the end. He didn't want to give us any other choice, or leave us with "what if's", there was no other choice.
I'm not sure who I am right now, because I've been Gentle Jacob's Mom since we rescued him, but especially since he started seizing. Everyone always gives me the credit, and I wear that very proudly, but it was my husband that he ran to the night we rescued him. It was my husband that he saw as his one chance and he ran right into his arms. I was just so lucky to have been the partner in this.
I want to thank so many of you for your support over the last 12 years. Even before I posted for the first time I was reading and getting support. Vivian, you were the first that gave me hope. Brian, Rich, Trevor, Colleen, and so many more, you've carried me through it all. I can't find the right words to thank you for everything you've done to make me get up and fight for Jake.
It would be so easy to stay in hell now, but if there's one thing I learned from Jake it's to stand up and fight back and not let it take you down when you're faced with the worst possible circumstance. I may not be able to do it for awhile, because everything I did he was close by so there is no escape for now. But I am going to do it for him. It's what I can do to honor him.
I don't know if or when I'll be back but I will try.
Vivian and Trevor, I tried to contact through CEN but for some reason my messages got hung up and weren't sent.

I'll think of all of you every day.
I hope they find a cure for this despicable heartless disease.
Lynne


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 Post subject: Re: Gentle Giant
PostPosted: Thu Jul 27, 2017 4:00 am 
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Lynne,

I came to this page this morning having 'a feeling', I don't know where those feelings come from that we get sometimes.

I am so incredibly sorry to hear of your loss. We all know what you're going thru and how this feels. I think when we have 'special' pets it hurts more because we've tried to find something to save them and couldn't, so the pain of losing them is more intense. You went above and beyond, which allowed your Jake to live a long time with this damned monster. I know from experience that going above and beyond doesn't mean much when they're gone. How I wish Jake would have passed from old age rather than those stinking seizures...

Sleep softly sweet Jake, watch over your mom now because not having you will be very hard for her.

All my sympathies, Vivian

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3.5 yo Irish Setter boy
First seizure 7/26/2013
Last seizure 3/24/2014
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5 yo Irish Setter boy
First seizure 1/25/06
Last seizure 9/4/2009

Aug 17, 2004- Sept. 22, 2009
May the shamrocks fall softly sweetpea


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 Post subject: Re: Gentle Giant
PostPosted: Thu Jul 27, 2017 4:29 pm 
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Dear Lynne,

I am so saddened to hear of your loss of Jake.

Take heart and know that YOU and your husband were wonderful parents to Jake. I wish I could give so much to Spencer.

Also, your wisdom and encouraging counsel to us remains invaluable.

May you be blessed with comfort and great returns of even a portion of what you have given to Jake.
My prayers continue for you and you husband.

Sincerely,
Trevor.

(I have tried to send a private message but it also appears to have failed - keep an eye out for it)


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 Post subject: Re: Gentle Giant
PostPosted: Wed Aug 02, 2017 3:46 am 
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Only just joined this site, and read your post this morning, how incredibly brave you are to write just an elequient post at a time of such sadness.
Your fur baby would be proud of you both, remember the pain never goes away but, we learn to live with it x


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 Post subject: Re: Gentle Giant
PostPosted: Sun Aug 06, 2017 11:12 am 
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I am so sorry to hear about Jake. I'm sending you warm and positive thoughts. I have read so many of your posts and they were so helpful and encouraging. Please know that your sharing about Jake was a light in our lives when we needed it most.

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Kaiser & KMarg
Kaiser is a Ger. Shep./Border Collie mix
Born Nov/Dec 2011
First seizure July 1, 2013
Last Seizure July 26, 2017
PhenoBar, 1 grain, 2x daily
Keppra, 750 mg, 2x daily
KBro, 750 mg, 2x daily
CBD/thc only since July 8, 2017


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 Post subject: Re: Gentle Giant
PostPosted: Thu Aug 10, 2017 6:34 pm 
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To everyone who posted here, and everyone who contacted me personally, I can’t thank you enough for your support. The last couple of weeks have been horrible, but you carried me once again. I miss Jake so much at times I can’t breathe, but then I remind myself of how incredibly lucky we were to have him in our lives for so long despite this vile disease. And I do find comfort knowing he doesn’t have to fight this anymore.
I’ve met a lot of wonderful people in my life who have taught me many amazing lessons. Little did I know that one of my greatest teachers would have four legs and one of the most stubborn personalities I have ever encountered. He was my buddy, my companion and I feel sometimes like I’m literally learning how to walk again without him.
It may be awhile before I come back to post again, but I will tell you this, I am not done with this disease. I’m not sure in what capacity I will fight against it, but I’m not finished. It took my dearest friend from me and I have to do something to honor him.
I’m posting a photo that CEN friends Brian and Natalie had done for us by their daughter. Those eyes say everything don’t they?

I think of all of you everyday.
Don’t give up. That’s exactly what this horrible disease wants.
My sincere and heartfelt thanks to all of you,
Lynne
http://i1266.photobucket.com/albums/jj5 ... z.jpg.html


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PostPosted: Fri Aug 11, 2017 8:11 am 
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First seizure: 07/28//10
Last seizure: 06/27/16


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