Hi all,
am parked on 1st street in front of Radio Shack borrowing signal ... they know I'm doing this and it is ok with them ... motel net is up, down, on/ off, won't load page, then if it does it only does partially before dropping signal all together ...
if I can arrange anything with Hopesource for a way for folks to donate will post here ...
told boss I'd be in tonight ... when I got there was sent home by fellow employee cause I'm a mess at times ... just start bawling outta no where, then ok ... then "everything" will be ok ... then back to bawling ... hope this part ends soon and I get settled somehow into something stable to live in ...
when back after dark tonight to neighbor house and asked neighbor guy to go with me with flashlights to look ... floor has sunk and is dangerous to walk on ... but he manage to pull wood futon frame, floor lamp, 1 of 2 end table's not burn, boombox radio, router, eyeglass case, and small table that had had 2 drawers in it that the fireman was able to get me the drawers from out ... storing floor lamp, end table, and futon frame at his place for after I can get settled somewhere and can clean em up - replace futon mattress ... funny, I had been sleeping on the futon in living room this winter cause it was the warmest room in apartment when fire broke out ... rest of stuff is toast ... some of what is there isn't even recognizable ... just a pile of melted black burned stuff that only I know what it was before ... and some stuff not where it belongs as they blaster 6 in hose water thru windows and has an overhead ladder with a diluge gunn pouring water thru cieling after roof collasped or burned away ... even a lawn mower on back utility room (aluminum I'm sure) melted to a heap of molten metal ... after dark it was surreal and scary looking place like on a scifi movie ... creepy even to him ...twightlight zone time ...
oh, oh, almost forgot ... and my battery operated alarm clock was sitting there on end table keeping perfect time ... roflmao ...

... guess I won't have to buy one ... if only there was someway to get to the middle room(kitchen) ... in front door is living room with sinking floor, next room is kitchen/dining room with sinking floor, next room is toasted bedroom with nuttin left, totally gutted or a heap of charcoal -barely recognize that heap is the bed, two partial nightstands and that's about it, then last room is utility room with waher/dryer, lawn mower, boxes of stuff, and outdoor rake's shovels and so on ... kitchen still has a miicrowave looking good and my travel mug/lid on counter all looking like nuttin even happened, with a pitcher of water next to it for filling dog water dish still full of water and not even dirty lookin' ... kitchen cabinets/drawers all looking like nuttin happened ... but no way to get there from here or from either end of apartment .. we tried but it would take wings thanks to the floor are giving out, not just soft but sloped at an angle floor and slippery as well ... told neighbor these items are not worth anyone getting hurt over so leave em be ...
ok ... bettery low ... gonna go back and sit in room and wonder what to do next besides pace in a sun-down podunk town
thanks everyone for letting me ramble ... therapy for the soul
Chris