We said Goodbye to Lilly on Saturday

DMH123 · Post by **DMH123** » Mon Dec 11, 2006 11:35 am

We let Lilly go on Sat. It was so very hard and we miss her so much already, but we also know that it was the right decision. I'm sure she's found her sister, Lucy, and our other dogs, Shelby and Dixie, and they are pain and seizure free just running and playing together.

Thanks to everyone on this network for all the information, comforting thoughts, and well wishes. I checked it regularly and felt a kinship with many of you.

I wish the best for all of you in the future with your very special loved ones.

skrpio · Post by **skrpio** » Mon Dec 11, 2006 12:32 pm

I am so sorry to learn of your loss. She will be at the Rainbow Bridge with all our pups waiting. Run free sweet Lily and God bless.

MK's mom · Post by **MK's mom** » Mon Dec 11, 2006 12:33 pm

Debbie,

I'm so very sorry for your loss. So many of you are losing young pets. This board is getting to be a very unhappy place. I know how heavy your heart must be. this is the worst part of pet ownership.

lovemypups · Post by **lovemypups** » Mon Dec 11, 2006 8:05 pm

Dear Debbie,
I'm so very sorry to hear about losing Lilly. I know it's a very hard decision to make, but you loved her, and didn't want her to be in pain anymore. She will always be with you and please accept my condolences on your loss.
Debbie
Casey epi since 05/10/05 and his non epi sister, Callie

suejacksoncarr · Post by **suejacksoncarr** » Tue Dec 12, 2006 1:58 am

Dear Debbie,

My heart is sad for you. The others are right, she is now in a pain-free and better place and will be waiting for you, along with your other beloved dogs.

You certainly did all you could, and now she is resting.

Sue

Dylans Dad · Post by **Dylans Dad** » Tue Dec 12, 2006 3:59 am

I`m so sorry! you have my deepest sympathy!
sending you big hugs.

kain · Post by **kain** » Tue Dec 12, 2006 6:40 am

I am so sorry to hear that. Now she is free running with all the other pups.
Hugs and Love,

Helen

Mandypop · Post by **Mandypop** » Tue Dec 12, 2006 9:04 am

Dear Debbie

Very sorry to hear your sad news.

Thinking of you.
Mandy

sammysmom · Post by **sammysmom** » Tue Dec 12, 2006 10:24 am

Debbie,

So sorry to hear you've lost Lilly. I know that was a hard decision and I feel your pain. We love these dogs sooooooo much!!

May the knowledge she is pain and seizure free at the Bridge give you comfort.

Sam was waiting as well as the others!

Take care,
Emily

Estelle · Post by **Estelle** » Tue Dec 12, 2006 10:26 am

Dear Debbie,

I know that this is a hard time for you right now and I just wanted to express my sympathy for your loss. Know that my prayers are with you during your grieving period.

DMH123 · Post by **DMH123** » Tue Dec 12, 2006 4:03 pm

Thanks everyone, for you words of comfort. It's very quiet at our house now. We also lost our hamster friend on Sat. He developed a large tumor that had gone unnoticed and by the time we did realize it, he was hardly able to move around. So, he went with Lilly. Now we have no pets...first time in over 19 years that we've been completely pet free.

I still catch myself looking for her at the sliding glass door wanting to come in. And, every night around 5pm I think about her feeding and medicine time. You guys know what I mean. It's just hard to break all the old habits and schedules.

My 2 daughters are both doing very well. It's unfortunate, but we've been thru this a few other times. Not that it's any easier, but we do realize that time will heal the pain. And, they know that we did all we could, no regrets.

Thanks again to everyone for being so kind and thoughtful at this sad time.

kain · Post by **kain** » Wed Dec 13, 2006 4:59 am

Dear Debbie,

I hope it doesn't upset you but may I ask if you finally found out if she had a brain tumour?

My prayers are with you,

Helen

DMH123 · Post by **DMH123** » Wed Dec 13, 2006 8:54 am

Helen, it doesn't upset me to answer your question. I've been talking about it quite a bit since we made the decision last week, so it's getting easier. I can actually tell people and not start to cry now.

Anyway, we do not know if she had a tumor. But, I talked with the vet for a long time last Tuesday night after 3 straight days of seizures and we discussed her other behavioral issues as well. He thought that she either had a tumor, or she had some other neurological deficit maybe due to the seizures. Either way, we both knew it was progressively getting worse. That's why the meds were not controlling things.

I don't think her sight was good even last week. One thing that she'd been doing for many months and she was still doing it last week, she would put her paw into the water bowl before she drank as if she couldn't see if there was water in it, or maybe even to get a handle on where it was. She was still walking into things as she paced...the pacing got worse, too. She was still pawing at her head alot. So many things that we were noticing that was getting worse besides the seizures.

I'm fine with not knowing for sure about the brain tumor. It was the best decision for her.

Thanks for the prayers. I appreciate that so very much.

sammysmom · Post by **sammysmom** » Wed Dec 13, 2006 1:47 pm

Debbie,

Those symptoms sounded spot on to how Sam was before I put him to sleep. My vet also agreed it was probably a brain tumor or other neuro issue not controllable with meds.

I just wanted you to know you weren't alone in this and at the end it's so hard to decide. I did it to and I'm at peace with my decision.

I still have times at 7pm (when I gave Sam his meds) where I'm like "OMG I forgot" then I realize. I also call Cooper Sam all the time. So it takes a while to heal, however you gave Lilly a loving home and did the best you could with all the knowledge you had. It's a tribute to you she lived as long as she did!!

Take care and keep in touch!
Emily

kain · Post by **kain** » Thu Dec 14, 2006 8:57 am

Dear Debbie,

thank you for answering my question. Kain had exactly the same behaviour.... especially the thing you write about the water bowl... he used to step in it and take it with him as if he would not see it.. anyway I don;t know if he had brain tumor but for certain he wasn't getting any better.

May our furkids be seizure free and at peace and running now all toghether...

Stay in touch!!

Love,

Helen